throwing things away

everybody has probably something that gives him the feeling of freedom..
for my mother it is the moment when she is driving a car, and specially when she starts her journey at night and drives into the morning. thats what makes her feel free..

for me, the taste of freedom is to throw things away!!!
not every thing but as much as i can!

a very good example of this passion of mine was the time my family and i moved out of the last apartment we lived in all together.
we all packed our things into boxes.. and in the end my brother had about 20 boxes, my mother about 30 and I had only three!
I had only three boxes not because I didnt own anything but because i through all the other things away! I had a couch, a table, a closet and carpets and except for one carpet I gave everything away. i didnt gave it away because i didnt liked it anymore, but i did it because i knew i wouldnt be in a situation were i could use those things, i didnt want to keep them either and i simply love to throw or give things away.
My mom loves to teese me with the fact that when i was a little girl and one of my friends had birthday, i chose one of my own things to give it to her. she says i gave things i didn't liked anymore but i try to believe that she is lying ehheeheeee

it makes me feel free, makes me feel like what ever happen to me i will be able to go away anytime. sometimes if i go through my clothes (which is basicly the only thing i have apart from some items that mean very much to me) and i see that they are too much i get nervous, i imagine what a big problem i will have moving out with all this stuff.

my family, and specially the ladies of my family have the tendency to get hysterical from time to time.. this mostly happens in stress situations.. one of those stress situations for me is definitively seeing all the things i own!
at my brothers appartment i have a little space where i keep all my things and to me it seems like a huge space even if its just my clothes and shoes..

so, whenever i get into one of these stress situations i start throwing my things away and doing so makes me unbelievable happy and relieved, i feel free like a bird heheheeee

sometimes when i am shopping i feel sad and loose the will to buy something because i imagine how i will have to transport this particular item all over the world with me and i feel heavy and somehow caged.

i like to think about this character of mine as something good, i don't know what others think about it though..
i love to buy and wear things but i just dont like to own them..
i once heared about a celebrity who always traveles without luggage because everything he needs he will buy it at the place he is going to..
that is basically my dream scenario :)
of course not for everything, there are still things i would never want to give away, specially pictures and shoes heheheeee

and just to don't scare you too much:
i never throw things away that don't belong to me..