as time is passing, live is changing...

Well, I've had a baby... three months ago actually..
But I didn't only have had a baby, I've had a whole new beginning, a whole new start into a new live..

 There is so much to tell, so much to say that I don't even know were to start... thats maybe why I had been silent for so long...
Mesut was born on the 15th of July, on a sunday ten minutes before midnight while it was raining outside, like it had been raining all week.
It was hard, crazy hard even but my husband was there with me so together we were strong enough.
People say the moment you see your baby, all the pain is forgotten, well for me that didn't happen! But the love and the joy that comes after the pain (or after the first 6 weeks) is unbelievable, unexplainable.
Maybe later Ill talk more about how I felt back then and how I feel now...